Small Lies…


Chapter 2: Wolframs breakdown


Wolframs POV
I hadn’t been to the common breakfast in days.
It was better to sleep a bit longer and then go and eat your breakfast in peace and quiet.

“Yuuri have been avoiding me all these days, I can feel it.” I sat in my room and looked out of my window.

“But still… I couldn’t care less for the guy… I want him to avoid me, I don’t want to give him my sad face.”  I stood up and laid down in my bed.

“Yuuri…” I screamed with my head buried in my pillow.

I stopped and rolled over and stared at the roof. “I wonder if he has told them?” I felt tears again, inside my body, they wanted to come out.
“Of course he has told them… they’re probably writing invitations to a party to celebrate it! And… to young princesses… those who want to marry my Wimp.. no he’s not my Wimp anymore.. he’s Heika… Yuuri Heika!” rolled over and cried.

Later I got dressed and decided to take a part in the common breakfast.

I was standing in front of the room where everyone else was… even Yuuri.

I touched the knob… and thought.

Back flash
“But Yuuri… why can’t I sleep in your bed anymore?” I was annoyed.. that wimp didn’t want his Fiancé to sleep in the same bed!
I felt my blood bubbling inside.
“Because, I can’t take it!” He said, what’s that suppose to mean?
My hands turned to fists and I shaked.
“What do you mean by that?” I wanted to kick his ass, seriously.
He slowly took a step away from me…why?
“We’re both boys Wolfram! Boys! I just can’t describe it!” What did he mean about that… in this world it’s normal.
“You’re such a Wimp Yuuri! That’s no excuse!” I said I felt like I was going to explode
“What I’m saying is…” That stupid guy is trying to cheat on me… but he’s my Fiancé.. why don’t he just say it right in my face..?!
“You Wimp!” I felt amazing anger inside me I stepped against him and was about to punch him when he stopped my fist.
He looked me deep in my eyes…
“I’m sorry Wolfram… but in my world male bonding is disgusting!” When I heard those words it felt like he had ripped my heart out… just crushed me and my pride…why..? what… I felt dizzy.. it was awful. I felt like I was going to cry so I let his jacket go and turned around to leave.
“Wait Wolfram…but I really hope we still can be good friends?!” He said.. let me go.. please… I don’t want it.. go away.. No I don’t want to be friends.. I want to be something much more important to you..
My body was shaking I felt tears roll down my cheek.
“Wolf..?” He said and let my arm go… Now I can run.. run away...
I don’t want him to see me cry..
“but..Yuuri..I love you!”I whispered.
My feet suddenly became light and I ran out.
Back flash end

I slowly backed away from the door.
I sat down and hugged my knees.
“Yuuri..” I whispered.

I was quiet and tried to hear what they were talking about.

“I wonder where Wolfram is?” I heard my mother say.
I didn’t hear any replies… I felt forgotten.

Yuuri didn’t want to speak of me… I felt tears again but this time I could control them.

“Yuuri-Heika… you look awfully pale! Are you feeling ill?” I heard Günters voice inside.

“You’re cold… Someone get a blanket!!!!”  I heard him scream and some soldier ran out the door.

“Now I can help Yuuri with my body” I heard him say because the door wasn’t totally shut.

What did he do to my.. no.. forget it..

“Stop that Günter…what if Wolfram comes…!” I heard Weller say right before I opened the door.

“Wolfram” Mother said surprised.
I saw Günter hugging Yuuri… yeah.. he really looked pale.
Yuuri avoided me with his eyes.
Look at me Yuuri…

“Let go of me Günter.. I’m fine, nothing’s wrong with me!” Yuuri said and walked out of the room.

I felt kind off useless.. I want to be with him, Yuuri let me be with you… Please..
I felt tears again… I stopped them and sat down on my usual spot.. with Yuuris right hand.

I felt tears again…no I will not cry here… in front of Günter, Gwendal, Weller, Greta and Mother.

“Are you allrigth Wolf?” Mother asked worried. “You look sick.. you should ask Yuuri Heika if you can take the day off until your feeling better.

No Mother.. don’t talk about Yuuri.. not in front of me!
“No mother I’m fine.!” I lied and took a piece of bread.

I looked at Yuuris seat and down on his plate. The food was almost not touched.
One bite of the bread, One or two meat balls, and his cup wasn’t moved.

He probably is pitying me… that Wimp… he’s pitying every one who’s suffering.
What.. am I suffering?

I didn’t eat so much either. But I just sat there and looked at my plate…
The others had left the table, only mother was sitting beside me.
She was even sitting on Yuuris spot.

“Tell me what’s wrong! I don’t want you to look sad!” she said.
What? Did I?
“Mother.. I’m not sad!” I looked at her.
“Don’t lie to me Wolf… I’m your mother! I can see that your sad, your beautiful emerald green eyes are trembling!” She said and stroke my cheek.

I didn’t deny it. So I hugged mother and cried.
“What is it Wolf.. why are my little boy so sad? Tell me..” she whispered.

So I told her about what happened and she held me in her arms and consoled me.
“And mother… I love Yuuri… And I want to be with him… it hurts mother.. it hurts..” I grabbed my chest and fell on my knees.
“I don’t know what to do with this pain mother…”

To Be continued..